I miss her.

Bridesmaid: Emily

Dear Em,

Who knew that we would end up here?!? I'm so thankful for you and your transparency. I appreciate your truth and your genuine love for your friends. I love that we can laugh forever over the same joke.

You act like you know me, and I don't even like you. ;)

Honestly, I can't even begin to tell you how thankful I am for last summer! I loved every minute of it, and I'm so glad to know you so well now.

Love you, Emily. Thank you for who you are!

Bridesmaid: Andrea

Andrea, Eric and I both love you dearly. You are the sweetest and most genuine girl I know, and I'm so glad to call you friend! I can't believe that we met only two years ago; you have quickly become one of my dearest friends, and I look forward to the many memories we have yet to make. :)
I love you, Angela ;)

Bridesmaid: Julie

Two years ago, when we met, I had no idea that you would become such a beautiful part of my life. I cherish our friendship. I wish we could see each other more often, but I know that every time I see you, we'll just pick up right where we left off. And, the thing is, we never "left off" at all...even without physical presence, we still are sharing in life together.

Love you, Jule. So much.

Bridesmaid: Kylie

If there were a way to invent a best friend, I know that I couldn't come up with anything as unlikely and perfect as Kylie.

I couldn't be who I am without her. I truly believe that our friendship is one of the dearest blessings in my life.

I mean, who else would I kill jokes with? :)

Love you, best friend.

Maid of Honor = Beck

My little sister is the cutest. I'm sure of it :)
We've always dreamed up big things for our futures; from traveling through Europe to serving on the Sierra Leone mission field to living in communities with people to adopting children to going to college to...getting married.
I've never laughed as hard with anyone as I have and do with her.
Basically, my sister is cooler than you. And I'm glad to have her :)

Love you, Beck.

I wish I could...

I wish I knew how to overcome the want in me to fix this.
To fix everything.

Is there some switch somewhere that I can just flip and then I won't try to make everything better?